Chrissy Teigen says it is ‘difficult’ accepting she will not being able to carry another child again

Chrissy Teigen says it is ‘difficult’ accepting she will not being able to carry another child again following loss of son Jack

She revealed she will never be able to get pregnant again following the heartbreaking loss of her son Jack.

Now Chrissy Teigen is learning to accept this new harsh reality.   

‘Coming to terms with not being able to carry again is still really difficult for me because I feel so healthy. I’m like, why?’ the model, 35, admitted in her cover story for People. ‘But then I think about it as my uterus is just not cooperating with me — and it’s not a failure.

Learning to accept: Chrissy Teigen says ‘coming to terms’ with not being able to carry another child has been ‘difficult’ 

Chrissy and her husband John Legend tragically lost their third child, a baby boy they had already started calling ‘Jack’, 20 weeks into her pregnancy.

Chrissy shared the heartbreaking news with her Instagram followers shortly after the horrific experience, and posted photos of herself in the hospital mourning the loss of her child. 

Not long afterwards, she revealed she would be unable to carry a child again.

‘I love being pregnant, so so much, and I’m sad I never will be again,’ she posted on Instagram.

Cover family! Teigen and her children appearing on the cover of People magazine

Cover family! Teigen and her children appearing on the cover of People magazine 

Despite the loss, Chrissy expressed gratitude for her other two children, daughter Luna, four, and son Miles, two, whom were both conceived via IVF.

‘I’m so lucky for that,’ she told the magazine. ‘I just think of it in terms of how blessed I am already, and also there are so many ways to have a child nowadays … whether it’s surrogacy or adoption.’

In keeping with Thai tradition, the family have planted a tree in their house to honor their son.

'I'm so lucky for that': Despite the loss, Chrissy expressed gratitude for her other two children, daughter Luna, four, and son Miles, two, whom were both conceived via IVF

‘I’m so lucky for that’: Despite the loss, Chrissy expressed gratitude for her other two children, daughter Luna, four, and son Miles, two, whom were both conceived via IVF

By her side: Teigen with her husband John Legend in 2019

By her side: Teigen with her husband John Legend in 2019

‘It’s important for us in Thai tradition that we always embrace the ones we’ve lost, and they’re never, ever gone. This tree being planted inside the home, the whole reason why I wanted it was so Jack’s ashes could be in that soil and he could be with us all the time and grow through the beautiful leaves in this tree,’ she said.

‘The way Miles and Luna talk about him is so beautiful and reminds me of when I was little talking to my grandpa who was just sitting bedside next to my mom in a little urn,’ she said. ‘It’s all beautiful, and I love that tradition carries down.’

Chrissy revealed she had lost Jack in September 2020, with a series of heartbreaking photos of herself at the hospital.

‘We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before,’ she told followers. ‘ We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough.’

On Thursday she posted a photo of herself standing before a wall of her magazine covers.

Chrissy had three more People covers to hang up, but there was hardly any space on the wall for her newest work.

‘we’re gonna need a bigger boat,’ she mused in the caption.

'We're gonna need a bigger boat': On Thursday she posted a photo of herself standing before a wall of her magazine covers

‘We’re gonna need a bigger boat’: On Thursday she posted a photo of herself standing before a wall of her magazine covers