Matt Willis has admitted his wife Emma is terrified he may suffer a terrible relapse as Busted go on tour.
The musician, 40, has reunited with Charlie Simpson, 38, and James Bourne, 40, to perform 15 shows around the country for the band’s 20th anniversary.
The tour kicked off on September 2 in Plymouth and will wrap up later this month in Manchester.
Matt has revealed it will be a tough mental challenge for him as the last time he toured with the band in 2016, he spiraled back into drug addiction after eight years of sobriety.
‘Being on tour has been a moment of relapse for me again and again and again. Our life is really great…and a lot of people say to me, “Matt, why do you put yourself in a dangerous situation?”, Matt told The Mirror.
Honest: Matt Willis has admitted his wife Emma is terrified he may suffer a terrible relapse as Busted go on tour
Loyal: The father-of-three said he feels ‘very grateful and lucky’ that Emma has stood by him
Back together: The musician, 40, has reunited with Charlie Simpson , 38, and James Bourne, 40, to perform 15 shows around the country for the band’s 20th anniversary
‘And it’s because I love it, and I really do, and I feel passionate about it, and I’m capable of doing that clean and sober. I am. Emma understandably worries about that, but I think she can see the work that I put in.’
The couple married in 2008, before which the Busted singer battled with well-documented demons, leading to rehabilitation for alcoholism in 2005 and for marijuana addiction a year later.
Matt said while Emma is worried, she can see how much progress he has made and how open he is with talking about his struggles.
The father-of-three said he feels ‘very grateful and lucky’ that Emma has stood by him.
Speaking frankly about his marriage, he said: ‘I always felt like I was hanging on for dear life for so many years. And whereas now, it’s a two-way partnership.’
Matt, who became addicted to smoking cannabis at the age of 13, has been sober for five years and hasn’t had a drink in 13 years.
While with years of sobriety behind him, the bassist said there are certain rules in place to avoid potential relapse triggers including a strict no drugs policy in the dressing room and extending that to anyone around him on tour.
Matt said he finds the ‘mind-altering state of drugs’ too triggering to be around and that he can’t be near anyone on them or around substances.
Determined: Matt has revealed it will be a tough mental challenge for him as the last time he toured with the band in 2015, he spiraled back into drug addiction after eight years sober
Strong: The couple married in 2008, before which the Busted singer battled with well-documented demons
Grips of addiction: In his early 20s the singer said couldn’t get to lunchtime without drugs or alcohol (pictured in 2004 with James and Charlie L-R)
‘I kind of find that really too hard. So I haven’t worked enough on that to be able to be around it,’ Matt said.
The Year 3000 hitmaker added he has learnt over the years not to lie through therapy, after his early rehab stints were unsuccessful because he shirked dealing with his addiction issues.
He said when Busted first found fame in the early noughties he was ‘falling to pieces’ and would be the last one in bed after spending all night partying.
In his early 20s the singer said couldn’t get to lunchtime without drugs or alcohol.
Matt’s honestly comes after his BBC documentary Fighting Addiction gained praise from viewers after it aired in May.
Many praised Matt’s wife Emma for standing by him and offering her support during his battle with addiction, with one viewer branding the documentary ‘the most powerful thing they’ve watched in years.’
In the film, the presenter broke down in tears as she shared fears that Matt could relapse at any time, while revealing she kept a daily diary of his drug use at the height of his addiction.
She also shared fears Matt could relapse while on tour with Busted, after it was announced that the band will reunite for a run of concerts later this year.
The first scene of the documentary showed Emma opening the diary she kept in 2008, which detailed Matt’s daily alcohol and drug use.
One of the diary’s pages showed that Emma had written Matt was ‘totally p***ed’.
She told the cameras: ‘The only thing I could think of to keep track, was to keep a diary.
‘I don’t think I’ve ever read it since I wrote it. It’s literally just notes of… what I knew he had consumed.
‘A bottle of champagne, a couple of wines, a couple of wines… another bottle of champagne, and more.’
Emma also revealed she would go to all the local pubs to try and find Matt, but he would deliberately go to places she wasn’t aware of.
She added: ‘I was so scared he would die,’ while admitting that living with someone with addiction was ‘unpredictable’ and ‘anxiety-inducing’.
Speaking to the camera she said: ‘Matt’s always had issues but they seem to really kick in when he’s on tour.
‘I know he doesn’t wanna be that person but is his brain going to trick him and go, ‘just one more time, no one will know. That’s the worry.’